The Winterfood Diaries

The Winterfood Diaries

Monday, 26 February 1990

Fergie and Cheggers

THE COLLEGE THEATRE (NORCAT), BACKSTAGE (LEFT)

11.20am

‘Ocean Size’ – Jane’s Addiction

I got into College, sat on the steps with Danny and Astra, and then Mary-Jane walked by.  She turned, looked up, and smiled at me.  I smiled back, of course.  I can only interpret her smile to me as a positive and encouraging sign.  I do hope so.

In the Common Room, I sat looking over at her occasionally.  She was with the blonde girl who I’m assuming goes out with my old school buddy Danny Chegwin.  Her name’s Sandra, I believe.  Add her to my list of favourite people.  Despite my looking over, Mary-Jane didn’t give me much feedback.  As she left – to go to the 3rd floor – so did I (I had a lesson) and I was walking along about two steps behind her, a bit unsure and a bit embarrassed.  She held the door for me and said ‘Bye.’  I replied, ‘Bye’ in a hoarse, choked and slightly pathetic squeak of a voice.  And that was that.

‘Forth Rode The King’ – Stephen Oliver

In the Common Room at break, we shared a few meagre glances – not much at all.  I hope we haven’t reached some kind of ‘lull’ stage.  I want to do something now; talk to her?  But how does one approach that problem?  What could I start talking to her about?  What can I feasibly do next without being laughed at?

I talked to Kat about it, because we’ve been through this stuff together.  I don’t want to attempt ‘stepping in’ behind Mickey’s back, either just at present or at all.  It would only complicate things in the future.  And I don’t want a complicated life.  Anyway, I’ve learnt all my lessons in that department.  I’d rather Mickey was out of the way properly before I allowed anything to develop, but it’s all a bit Catch 22.  Or something.  By which I mean he probably won’t really be out of the way unless I actually do instigate something.  And, in a sense, she’s handed me an ultimatum, hasn’t she?

Should I talk further with Daryl about it?  Can I even trust what Daryl tells me to be true?

It all feels a bit futile and I feel a bit pathetic – especially when I realise I only have 3 months left at College.  Help!

Mind you, time’s not quite so oppressive as I once thought.  Not since my trip last week…

Later:

9.15pm at Blackberry Narrow

‘Street Tuff’ – Rebel MC

That was during rehearsals. 

And the afternoon was even more interesting – just as I was feeling so terminal.

I passed by her and we both said ‘Hi’.  And later, she went to the ‘phones with Sandra.  Jonny passed her and said hello.  Then, on one of our little trips, he and I were asked by Sandra if we had any change for the ‘phone.  I did and I said she could keep it.  As I turned to go, with Mary-Jane watching, I knocked a ‘phone from its hook and then banged the bubble around it with my head as I was replacing it.

I could have died of embarrassment.

Anyway, Jonny and I went on our way, ‘bumping into’ them again later when Sandra insisted on giving me back some of the change she hadn’t used.  She then asked me if I was going to get together with her and Danny Chegwin for a drink sometime soon.  So I said I would give him a ring and check it out.  We all said ‘goodbye’ then.

‘March of the Ents’ – Stephen Oliver

Then, after break, I ran over to the two of them and asked Sandra to ask Cheggers to give me a ring tonite.  She said she would but – ho-ho – she had to take my number.  So I gave it to her, with Mary-Jane standing next to me.

Sandra: Yes and perhaps we could all go for a drink sometime (she gestures at Mary-Jane)?
Ritch: Yeah, sure.
Mary-Jane: Yes, I’m coming along too!  I’ve invited myself.

I grinned, pleased at the level of her commitment to our little game, despite my clumsiness, despite Mickey, etc.

Cheggers hasn’t rung me yet, but I was chuffed by another smile and a ‘Bye’ later in the day.

Roll on, tomorrow.

I think it would be good to get together with Sandra, Cheggers and Fergie.  I want to.  It feels positive.


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Next time: ‘The last dance…’

Sunday, 25 February 1990

Ritcherd People

‘Queen of Las Vegas’ – The B-52s

I look forward to seeing Mary-Jane tomorrow.

But what do I do?

How do we ensure we live up to each other’s expectations?

Later:

‘Sweat Loaf’ – Butthole Surfers

My favourite people are:

Mary-Jane Ferguson, Danyel ‘Flash’ Gordon, Jonny Badcock, Elliott ‘Elbow’ Barlow, Raquel Stevens, Marita Huckle, Minty from Preston, Maggie, Natalia Wnek, and many others. 

I like Reece Dinsdale, too, but am I allowed to count him?

I had a friend called Lilith MacMillan, but she’s gone and in going has also chosen to sever our contact.  In a way, I am glad.  It was special once and should perhaps always stay special in its bubble, there in the all-too-brief past.

I also had a friend called Stan.  He was the cause of much laughter, but also the cause of equal amounts of annoyance.  But now he’s left College and I shall miss him.  I know it.  I doubt I shall ever see him again.

Other notable people: Amy Neat, Jolene Morse, Kat Hill, Chloe Attenborough, Larry Goodgirl, Julian Ward, Darren Marsh, Spock, Ash, Legs, Nyall Watson, Sally WatsonDonna Davidson (on and off, it seems), my family, etc.
  

[Images subject to control of individual Copyright Holders including works originated by Elton Townend Jones, but excluding any images or design attributed to ‘The Situation’ which are copyright of The Situation (see specific acknowledgements in the ‘Thanks to…’section below) / ‘Berwin Groomstool’ is an iteration of the Situation character ‘William Whicker’ and falls under joint copyright of Elton Townend Jones and Waen Shepherd / Based on true events and designed as a study of parochial British cultural and emotional life in the late 20th century, this blog is a work of fiction – cultural icons excluded, all characters and incidents featured are entirely fictional / This blog is non-profit; all video clips are used for illustrative purposes and almost always come from YouTube / No copyright infringement is intended – just trying to get things into context. Never forget: no man is an island. If you think anything I’ve used is damaging you in any way, please comment and immediate action will be taken to minimise offence / This notice was amended on 1 July 2012 and is intended to cover this and all posts on www.25yearstoolate.blogspot.com that precede it]


Next time: ‘Cheggers and Fergie…’

Saturday, 24 February 1990

The Regular Ritcherd Update

‘Room at the Top’ – Adam Ant

Today I went to some pubs in Brandon with Spock and the Commander.

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Later:

‘Thief of Fire’ – Loop

So, DEAR READER, JUST WHO AM I?

Allow me to remind you…

Well, hi.  I’m Ritcherd J. Winterfood.  Often referred to by some as ‘Jez’ [for mysterious reasons now lost within the bowels of time…]

I’m 19 and I’ll be 20 very shortly.  My star sign is Gemini.  I live in a house called BLACKBERRY NARROW in Cambridgeshire and it’s oddly beautiful around here.  In a barren sort of way.  Kind of refreshing, though.

I ‘study’ the Theatre and Performing Arts at NORCAT in Norfolk, and my lecturer tells me that at the rate I’m going, I have pretty much already passed the course with Distinction even though we don’t leave till June

‘Battle of Pelennor Fields’ – Stephen Oliver

What motivates me?

Loving people: getting to know individuals and discovering their beautiful intricacies; the wonders of love; the joy of thought and imagination; the notion that every moment is unique; music; the stage; hope; friendship; Mary-Jane Ferguson

I am interested in: DOCTOR WHO, JRR TOLKIEN’S MIDDLE EARTH SAGAS, and loads of other beautiful things.  And I am definitely a SITUATION fan.

What do I like musically?

Hard to define right now.  Lately it’s been a lot of Acid/Dance stuff and some Indie.  But I also like soul-fulfilling things like Kate Bush and, right now, Stephen Oliver’s THE LORD OF THE RINGS soundtrack.

I love life.


[Images subject to control of individual Copyright Holders including works originated by Elton Townend Jones, but excluding any images or design attributed to ‘The Situation’ which are copyright of The Situation (see specific acknowledgements in the ‘Thanks to…’section below) / ‘Berwin Groomstool’ is an iteration of the Situation character ‘William Whicker’ and falls under joint copyright of Elton Townend Jones and Waen Shepherd / Based on true events and designed as a study of parochial British cultural and emotional life in the late 20th century, this blog is a work of fiction – cultural icons excluded, all characters and incidents featured are entirely fictional / This blog is non-profit; all video clips are used for illustrative purposes and almost always come from YouTube / No copyright infringement is intended – just trying to get things into context. Never forget: no man is an island. If you think anything I’ve used is damaging you in any way, please comment and immediate action will be taken to minimise offence / This notice was amended on 1 July 2012 and is intended to cover this and all posts on www.25yearstoolate.blogspot.com that precede it]


Next time: ‘Ritcherd people…’

Friday, 23 February 1990

Getting Off With Chloe

‘Welcome’ – Gino Latino

My day began in LA’s nite club with all my college buddies, celebrating a birthday party for Darren and Marco

Eventually, after about five pints, I sat and talked with Chloe Attenborough who seemed very upset about Julian finishing with her – added to which, she’d just lost her purse.  As I sat with her, she began to cry on me, cuddling up to me.  She then gripped my hand and I found myself caressing her as she caressed me.  She leant her head over my shoulder and I put mine over hers.  We embraced like this for a while, drifting through the music.  When we finally pulled out, we looked at each other and somehow, instinctively, found ourselves kissing.  For a long and excellent time. 

It seemed unreal.  Bizarre.  And, ultimately, treacherous.  After a lot of kissing, she suddenly succumbed to the amount of alcohol she’d been drinking and had to be sick.  And so she was.  On the floor, nearby.  Chicken and booze all over the nite club floor.

‘Be Kind To My Mistakes’ – Kate Bush

After she’d had time to re-arrange and re-assess herself, we left LA’s together.  It was 1.45am.  We walked around King’s Lynn, holding onto each other and kissing.  At about 2.30am, she caught a taxi home and I walked back to Jonny’s.

When I got in, Jonny was in bed.
‘How did it go?’ he asked.
‘I’ve done a bad thing,’ I said.
‘What?’
‘I got off with Chloe Attenborough.’
‘Oh, what?!’ he said (he hates her, y’see).  ‘You twat.’

I went to bed.

Today, we went into Tech and as we walked by the Common Room, Jonny stunned me by reporting that Chloe was sitting and talking to Mary-Jane.  I should have realised there’d be consequences to what happened at LA’s given that Julian had told me that they were friends.  I then felt totally useless and pathetic.  A bit gullible even.

At break, I was given nothing by Mary-Jane and, for the first time, her boyfriend Mickey came in.

‘That’s it then,’ I thought.  ‘All over.’

At lunch, Chloe sent me a message via Marco that I should meet her.  So I did and she apologised for last night.  I offered my own apology and we both agreed that it probably shouldn’t have happened.  That said, I suggested that we might get on better as a result and that I might like her a bit more than I thought I had.  She asked me if I’d help her get back with Julian.  If that’s what she wants, then I will.

The rest of lunch I spent watching Mary-Jane across the Common Room, feeling a little better that she was watching me back, smiling, and talking to her friends about me.  But saying what?!

‘Enjoy the Silence’ – Depeche Mode

At afternoon break, I left the Common Room with Jonny and we were very obviously followed by Mary-Jane and her friend to the Library Block, where she waited for the lift and Jonny and I took the stairs.  But as I reached the 3rd floor for the Drama Studio, I turned to see Mary-Jane rushing behind and past me to go to the Art Rooms.  As she opened the Art Rooms door, she turned to face me and smiled.  I smiled, a bit embarrassed, back and then entered the Drama Studio.

A minute or so later, I felt compelled to look into the corridor again – and there she was, waiting for the ‘down’ lift.  I rushed back into the Studio again feeling dead chuffed.  Unless she had needed to visit the Art Rooms for about one minute, then the journey she had made across the campus from the Common Room to the Library Block had all been done as an exercise in following me.

At the end of the afternoon, Daryl came up to me and told me that Mary-Jane does fancy me.
Jonny asked, ‘Why does she stay with Mickey, then?’
‘I dunno,’ said Daryl.  ‘He’s a twat.  Apparently, a little while ago, she told someone that she’d never finish with him, but she told me that if she gets on really well with you, Ritcherd, and things are all fine, then she’d dump him and go out with you.  She really likes you and thinks you’re sweet.  So make a move soon!’

If any of that was true, then that’s great, but as Daryl goes out with Ian who historically fancies Lilith and has no reason to especially like me because I also fancied Lilith, then I’m taking this with a pinch of salt.

‘The Road Goes Ever On’ – Stephen Oliver

Later, Jonny and I passed them all in a group and Daryl and Mary-Jane were talking about me.  Daryl then rushed over to me and asked me if I’d be in the Wenns bar to nite.  Unfortunately I wouldn’t be, despite Daryl telling me that if I did then Mary-Jane would get rid of Mickey awhile in order to chat with me.  Christ!

Mary-Jane watched us leave the Common Room, then followed us some of the way.  Daryl blatantly and a bit obviously shouted out, ‘Oh, by the way, Fergie, I told Ritcherd you fancy him!’  Fergie is Mary-Jane’s nickname; her surname is Ferguson.  Anyway, I must have gone bright red and so must have Mary-Jane.  I carried on walking and she sat on a wall.

I then left for home.
 
Later:

10.10pm

‘Holding On’ – Soul II Soul

What an interesting week it’s been.

THE BRITS was good.  Soul II Soul had me riveted.


I watched The Comic Strip Presents: Oxford and it was great.


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Next time: ‘The regular Ritcherd update…’

Thursday, 22 February 1990

More LSD and a Party

‘Jazzie’s Groove’ – Soul II Soul

My day began, post-Tech disco, tripping on acid in King’s Lynn Walks with Marita Huckle, philosophising about the universe.  We talked about so much and so deeply, all way too much to go into or describe/illustrate in these pages. 

BUT I now (though possibly illogically) how incredible Time is, and that the space a number takes up in the universe is already larger than infinity.  Just think of all the numbers at once.  That’s what Time is made of, folks.  Now add those numbers together.  That’s bigger than all of Space-Time.  That’s beyond infinity.  Crikey me!

Eventually, after going for a wander, we bumped into Donna and Sally walking along hand-in-hand.  We had a bit of ‘trouble’ with them as they were also tripping acid and had decided they’d like to walk/hitch 35 miles to Peterborough.  And it was already 2am.

We eventually talked them out of it and all piled back to Donna’s and slept.


Today at Tech, the glances across the Common Room, etc. faded all but completely and I felt a little down in the dumps.  I decided Mary-Jane was no longer interested in my staring and watching.

This evening, I had my tea at Jonny’s, changed, and then met Jolene, Tracey and Rita before we all went to the Spread Eagle where I met up with Kat, Willock, Venus, and Leighton.  We all then went to LA’s nite club with most other Tech people for Darren Marsh and Marco Di-Fonzo’s joint surprise 19th birthday party.  After lots of difficulties for most people over getting in, a splendid nite was had with other kiddies such as Jamie Davenport, Will, Lisa and Stan

This was fun with Stan for the last time as he has (yet again, inevitably) dropped out of College to go and live in a squat in Cambridge.  Well, all the best to him, I suppose.  He’s been around most days since September last year and I’ve quite enjoyed his company in small, mellow doses.  We have a very different friendship now; less intrusive, less competitive.

‘All Around The World’ – Lisa Stansfield

Amy Neat sat with me and asked me how I felt about Julian + Chloe’s split. 
I said: ‘It’s good.’
She asked: ‘Why?’
I said: ‘After the ways she’s treated him, I don’t think I like her.’

Amy then tried to get off with me, but I didn’t let her.  She got upset and went.

Kat and Willock had me in stitches much of the nite.  I also bopped with Jolene and Rita (who’s turning into bit of a ‘House’ freak – good on her!).


[Images subject to control of individual Copyright Holders including works originated by Elton Townend Jones, but excluding any images or design attributed to ‘The Situation’ which are copyright of The Situation (see specific acknowledgements in the ‘Thanks to…’section below) / ‘Berwin Groomstool’ is an iteration of the Situation character ‘William Whicker’ and falls under joint copyright of Elton Townend Jones and Waen Shepherd / Based on true events and designed as a study of parochial British cultural and emotional life in the late 20th century, this blog is a work of fiction – cultural icons excluded, all characters and incidents featured are entirely fictional / This blog is non-profit; all video clips are used for illustrative purposes and almost always come from YouTube / No copyright infringement is intended – just trying to get things into context. Never forget: no man is an island. If you think anything I’ve used is damaging you in any way, please comment and immediate action will be taken to minimise offence / This notice was amended on 1 July 2012 and is intended to cover this and all posts on www.25yearstoolate.blogspot.com that precede it]


Next time: ‘Getting off with Chloe…’

Wednesday, 21 February 1990

LSD at the Valentine's Disco

’20 Seconds To Comply’ – Silver Bullet

Today, after a day of extremely obvious Common Room stares with Mary-Jane, Danny told me he believes she’s the sister of one of his mates from school.  Seems she and I have some mutual friends, too, and they’ve been telling her snippets about me.

At one point, I went up some stairs and I looked down as I was turning up another flight and saw Mary-Jane at the bottom.  We both smiled at each other very broadly.

What’s she look like?

Shorter than me, with long, wavy ginger hair – very orange and golden – tied back at the sides.  She’s generally to be seen in a green velvet jacket and a black top, with a pendant around her neck.  I’ve often seen her in a long dark skirt or a flowery one and sometimes in baggy purple trousers.  She also often wears black tights with the skirts and DM shoes.

‘Welcome to the Terrordome’ – Public Enemy

This evening, I had tea at Jonny’s and then put on my purple dungarees and my black hoodie and DM boots and my biker’s jacket to meet up with Rita, Sally Watson, Donna Davidson, and Jolene.  The former three and myself dropped acid and started a trip together.  We then went to the fair and Rita and I went on the waltzer which was totally brilliant; one of the greatest sensory experiences I’ve ever had.  After this, we went on the cyclone.  Then we all went to the Regis Rooms for the Late Valentine’s Disco.



It all seemed rather dead at first, but eventually the number of people was what I’d call cosy.  The music was excellent, the beer was plentiful and we all gave it some when it came to dancing.  Particular stand-out tracks were: ’20 SECONDS TO COMPLY’, ‘WELCOME TO THE TERRORDOME’, ‘PACIFIC 707’, ‘HALLELUJAH’, ‘BACK TO LIFE’ and, of course, ‘GET A LIFE’.

I chatted to Daryl, Ian’s girlfriend about Mary-Jane and told her I like her lots.  She said she’d let Mary-Jane know and I was cool with that. 

After the disco, Rita and I went to The Walks and had heavy discussing times all about the senses, space and time, etc.  I love LSD.


[Images subject to control of individual Copyright Holders including works originated by Elton Townend Jones, but excluding any images or design attributed to ‘The Situation’ which are copyright of The Situation (see specific acknowledgements in the ‘Thanks to…’section below) / ‘Berwin Groomstool’ is an iteration of the Situation character ‘William Whicker’ and falls under joint copyright of Elton Townend Jones and Waen Shepherd / Based on true events and designed as a study of parochial British cultural and emotional life in the late 20th century, this blog is a work of fiction – cultural icons excluded, all characters and incidents featured are entirely fictional / This blog is non-profit; all video clips are used for illustrative purposes and almost always come from YouTube / No copyright infringement is intended – just trying to get things into context. Never forget: no man is an island. If you think anything I’ve used is damaging you in any way, please comment and immediate action will be taken to minimise offence / This notice was amended on 1 July 2012 and is intended to cover this and all posts on www.25yearstoolate.blogspot.com that precede it]


Next time: ‘More LSD, plus a party…’

Tuesday, 20 February 1990

Spring Clean

8.40am
THE HARVEST BAKERY CAFÉ, HORSEFAIR, WISBECH

Missed the bus, of course.  Just dandy, isn’t it?

Bugger!

Gives me a chance to catch up on my life, though, doesn’t it?  And readers, you know you gotta get a life…

‘Get A Life’ – Soul II Soul

What’s been going on?

The folks moved out!  And it feels so good to be in charge of Blackberry Narrow.  It seems all new and lovely; warm and clean and big and peaceful with redecorating and a spring clean.

TV
ERASERHEAD was on.  I videoed it.  I’ve seen the first half and it’s weird.



What else?

Later:

‘Shadowfax’ – Stephen Oliver

Today, Rita told me that yesterday afternoon the ginger-haired girl had gone over to ask her a few brief questions, i.e. who was the card from?  What is his name?  And does he fancy her?  Rita countered by asking her name – it’s Mary-Jane – and finding out if she’s going out with someone.  Yes, she is, and Mickey is his name.  Still, I’m impressed at the interest shown and the glances across the Common Room have become much more persistent.

This evening, Astra cut my hair.


‘No Time To Cry’ – Sisters of Mercy

OH, I FORGOT TO MENTION THAT I SAW JULIAN WARD TODAY.
He returned some videos I’d lent him and we went into King’s Lynn together.  On the way, we were briefly shadowed by Mary-Jane who was giggling and chatting with her friend.
‘Probably laughing at my sex life,’ said Julian.
‘I don’t know,’ said I.  ‘I like her and she knows it.’
‘Do you?’ he asked.
‘Yes.  Anyway, why do you say they’re laughing about your sex life?’
‘Because they’re friends of Chloe.’  (Chloe being Chloe Attenborough, his girlfriend)
‘How are things with Chloe?’
’I’ve finished with her,’ he said.

This shocked me, but after much conversation with him, it seemed to me that he’d done the right thing and I found myself feeling much less sympathetic towards her; even questioning my previous liking of her and replacing it with a passive loathing.


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Next time: ‘Late Valentine’s Disco…’